Stills, No. 0002.

Jack Davey, New York City, 2005
Photography by Jason Wallace
© URB Magazine

Thank you to my sticky fingers at the photoshoot.

Stills, No. 0001.

Checker Pool, Pittsburgh, 1949
Photography by Charles "Teenie" Harris
© Pittsburgh Courier Photographic Archives

Thank you to Ms. Bella for sending me this.

the tipping point v.2.4.2.3

"the phrase tipping point, or angle of repose, is a sociological term that refers to that dramatic moment when something unique becomes common*."

everything about this seems to have been set up.
like it's all following a script.
it's all so weird.
but i can't complain.


love,
filthy.


*saying it's common is not a bad thing, it's just become a part of everyday life. a wonderful part of everyday life. at the end of the day it's not taken for granted and that's all that matters.

pride.

tonight i had my card pulled.
i take that pride shit way too far.
i mean yeah i want to make something of myself on my own sweat but accepting a helping hand is not a bad thing.
thank you, bella, for not lettin' me pull my typical bullshit.


love,
filthy.

my name is simon, and i like to do drAAAAwings.

these are OLD. about 10 years old. give or take a year or so. but after coming across these when i was painting and cleaning the house and after seeing donweezy's munni (thats plural. not really. but yeah, really.) its really made me want to add a few extra hours to my day so that i can draw, paint, build, whatever. i gotta make the time cause the bug is iiiiiiiiitching.

i just died ..

.. DIED laughing.

Sunday Morning Cuddling.

There is a 30 minute cuddle rule on sunday mornings.
Cause its the sabbath.
Jesus said so.


Love,
Filth.

eleventeen random thoughts.

won. new hustle?
too. everyone is a sanger or a rapper!
tree. this weather has gotten out of hand. 67º in november?? ridiculous. that being said, fuck a global warming, keep it coming!
foe. i hate tyrese gibson and i don't understand why he is still breathing.
phife. hearing a verse or song and knowing who that song/verse is about is weird. knowing that you're a part of the story is even weirder.
sex. god no.
seh'm. whoops apocalypse .. ridiculous.
ate. i want steak. bad. preferably from that spot that brook, bri and me ate at in spain.
nova. mia's baby walks it out.
tin. this sidekick2 is starting to fail on me. i need a new phone sooner than later.
eleventeen. you owe me breakfast .. brunch .. dinner .. a museum visit .. and a few more things that i can't remember right now. but you ain't payin'.

Sa Ra Creative Partners.

The "hype" has died down and about a week ago I started listening again. And while I still think that the initial craze was overblow because, no, they are not the second coming of parliament funkadelic. BUT they are pretty fuckin' dope. Just listen to this* and you'll see. AND if you don't agree, then go die.


Love,
Filthy.


*I'm sure some of y'all have heard this, so this isn't for you guys.

paisley park studios.

i want to live there.

yes i do.

If I were an emcee/sanger, part I

If I were an emcee I'd rhyme over THIS on my mixtape. But that's probably why I wouldn't be good at emceein'/sangin'.

Love,
Filthy.

ps- i know a few of you emcee's visit this place *cough* donwill *cough* von pea *cough* che *cough* mike baker *cough* trackademicks *cough* so i dare y'all to spit over this. don't be afraid. be men. punk asses.

This entry is dedicated to ..

Saturday nights.
And Sunday mornings.
And the pains of being grown.
And the pains of soreness.
And the pains of bad backs.
And asian cinema.
And Chow's wardrobe.
And sexy, stylish, womens attire.
And a return from a long/short excursion.
And the demise of toughies.
And to walking away before the gate is locked.
To what never was but will always be.

And if you don't get it, then shut up.
And by shut up I mean I love you.

Love,
Filthy.

dear jesus & santa:

this year i was (somewhat) well behaved. i didn't get arrested. i didn't get pregnant. and i did not smoke crack. that whole guitar thing in denver was self defense .. i swear. i also kept my penis away from random vaginas and drank very little. so please look over my list and bless me with all of my lil' wants and desires.

mason jars (to drink water out of on hot summer days)
a tweed blazer (to get my old man on with)
an earthtoned down or insulated vest (to wear over my tweed blazer on cold winter days, i have a vision damnit)
city of men dvd
issues 1, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 of preacher
shirts, preferably poplin, in classic colors (blues, whites and traditional stripes)
trench coat from uni qlo
black overcoat from wherever makes good black overcoats.
lifetime unlimited metrocard (or a month. or a week. shit, can a fool get a fun pass??)
sexy time pants
sexy time denim
vans & chucks or chucks & vans
some scarves and some gloves
ties (preferably skinny)
mac n cheese, chicken and waffle dinner (please? i'm hungry.)
prescription lenses for my three big ugly glasses that have no lenses at all
a 3 piece boateng suit (not gonna happen)
macbook pro (not gonna happen)
an investor (not gonna happen but lord knows i need it)
a trip to paris (not gonna happen)
a trip to london (not gonna happen)
a trip to amsterdamn (not gonna happen)
a trip to brasil (not gonna happen)
a trip to jersey?! (can i go SOMEWHERE?!)
and scarlett johansson

thank you for your time and consideration. i know you're both very busy men but please check back cause i will update this list.

love,
filthy.


ps - is there anyway that i can get this stuff before christmas?
pps - please, jc and santa, let me know which one of you is gettin' me what so i don't have repeat gifts.
ppps - please don't let me wake up to nothing on the 25th .. i really don't want to have to hurt anyone. thanks.




*editor's note: this is not a gift registry .. its just a joke .. but feel free to send all gifts to 94-38 ... umm hehehe .. just kidding!*

public service announcement:

ms lauren lola from the town of chi has brought it to my attention that i'm missing some key elements from my blog. like midgets, sex and crippling diseases .. but not all at the same time. i refuse to add midgets to my blog, not because i hate them but because they're up their with clowns on my fright-o meter. i also refuse to add crippling diseases because i am a merciful man and would never wish, nor give (if i had the power to) crippling diseases to anyone.
but in an effort to please my audience (who knew i even had one!) i have agreed to add the sex as well as roller derby featuring scantily clad hollywood starlets and murders. but not just senseless murders, because i am a man of principle, and being a man of principle does not allow me to kill at random but only when it is necessary. so, that being said, i will be ending forrest whitaker and shemar moore sooner than later and i will kill random white folks. see i even added racism to the mix. i hope ms lauren lola from the town of chi, and all our viewers, appreciate our efforts to make this blog new, exciting and awe inspiring .. like vh1 celebreality.

thank you,
the management.

*attention: midgets, sexers, crippling diseasers, scantily clad hollywood starlet roller derbiers, murders, white people and the racially senstive. i kid. i joke. get over it.

Dear Scarlett Johansson

I will have your babies.


Love,
Filthy.

eleventeen random thoughts.

won. the knicks suck. just in case you read this .. shut up, donnie.
too. i gotta get the life aquatic soundtrack. i have the session with seu jorge and they're dope.
tree. i haven't read the last graphic novel of preacher that i bought. its about the saint of killers origins and it kinda threw me a bit cause i wanna keep reading about jesse and company. i'mma try and knock that out this weekend.
foe. say it ain't so, cosmo.
phife. the clipse album is pretty damn good .. but for some reason, with a couple of exceptions, it just doesn't move me. i'm REALLY starting to think that i've outgrown hip hop. *throws on seu jorge*
sex. sandlot.
seh'm. don's munny talk has me wanting one.
ate. these folk are over here throwing down. i'mma get drunk off food tonight.
nova. finally done with this damn place. walls are painted. new couches moved in. polaroids are back up. place is squeaky clean. no don, this isn't for your next visit. jerk. it feels good, and i like to see my parents smiling, but i'll be happy when i can do all this to my own place.
tin. i need a camera :(
eleventeen. dani glow (its his gay porn name) told me to stop being a punk. he was referring to what/who was behind the khalil gibran and camera blogs. and it got me thinking which led to us (the what/who, not dani glow) talking. no holds barred. three 2 hour phone calls later eyes were a bit more open. more sense was made. and there was actually a laugh or two. honesty is the key and i think someone finally accepts that you don't have to destroy to build.

A Day In The Life Of Bill

(Episode 1, The Closet @ Def Jam.)

So, sometime last week I went to visit everyone's favorite hater, Bill, at his job. After going thru a maze of halls and offices we came upon this office that housed snapple (I had one or maybe two when Bill wasn't looking), bottled water, boxes of envelopes, promo CDs, a fridge and a Rev Run poster.
They've nicknamed this office the closet, and this is where they keep poor Bill. On one side of the room, that Bill would not let me photograph, were all of the employees coats, scarves and hats. And on this rainy New York City day there were galoshes, raincoats and umbrellas scattered about. Bill told me that he'd spend rainy days slipping on the wet floor. There's also a poster for a forgotten Redman album on his wall.
I started to feel bad for him until he told me that he requested these working conditions at all his jobs. Apparently, Bill needs this type of lifestyle to keep his surly demeanor intact. I just can't seem figure out why all this is necessary, all I'd need is the big ass Rev Run poster to keep me in a shitty mood. But that's the way it is. So when you see Bill out and about and he makes smart ass comments or tells you that your mixtape/demo/album is horrible or brags about the exculsive and rare Prince Meets D'angelo, Produced by Jesus Christ album that you'll never own just remember that that's the way Bill .. And God .. Intended it.

Next Weeks Episode: Bill & His Bitches*.

Love,
Filthy.

*Bitches is not meant in a disrespectful manner, it is merely the legal
name of one of the branches of Bill's vast empire.

Point of view.

If you're standing at this train station ..
Looking with your own eyes ..
From this distance ..
Things look closer.

But ..
Through the eyes of this camera ..
You feel a great separation.

I wonder ..
Am I seeing things with my own eyes ..
or the camera's.

Love,
Filthy.

Then said Almitra, Speak to us of Love.

And he raised his head and looked upon
the people, and there fell a stillness upon
them. And with a great voice he said:
When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to
him,
Though the sword hidden among his
pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks yo you believe in
him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as loves crowns you so shall he
crucify you. Even as he is for your growth
so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches
that quiver
in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and
shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto
himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred
fire, that you may become sacred bread for
God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you
that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowlegde
become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only
love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover
your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you
shall laugh, but not all of your laughter,
and weep, but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes
naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be
possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say,
"God is in my heart," but rather. "I am
in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course
of love, for love, if it finds you worthy,
directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil
itself.
But if you love and must needs have
desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook
that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own under-
standing of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart
and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate
love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with grati-
tude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the
beloved in your heart and a song of praise
upon your lips.

eleventeen random things

won. i'm reading the prophet. khalil gibran is amazing.
too. my desk is a mess. so is this room. that's why i started cleaning it around midnight and then started painting around 2-3am or so. i'm tired.
tree. i have a lot more clothes than i thought i did.
foe. i hate forrest whitaker. "I hated him so... much... it... it... the... it... the... fee... flames... flames... on the side of my face... heaving... breathless... heaving .." .. if you can tell me where that quote is from you get a prize. and by prize i mean something i don't have to spend money on.
phife. late last week i had wham!'s 'everything she wants' on repeat. this week it's joy in repetition (wink!). i also have a jay z playlist i can't stop listening to.
sex. and how.
seh'm. i'm watching office space as i type this.
ate. i'm glad we got to see each other again. it had been way too long and i don't know if i could have gone without you for much longer. i missed you so much. popeye's chicken, i love you.
nove. i miss my homies from high school. but fools are super busy and don't have time to kick it like that. plus i think we've grown in to much different people then we were back then.
tin. my camera is dead :(
eleventeen. i have a huge idea. i'm gonna need some help but i think this could be pretty interesting. i wonder if this is gonna be another one of my ideas that everyone loves but no one is willing to run with. i need a team. a small team but a team nonetheless.